I have been thinking about starting this blog for WAY too long. So now it’s time to just do it. Why does this scare me so much? To be honest, I fear the vulnerability it calls for. I don’t think I have the guts to be so bold and transparent. But God, I want to be! Because the truth is, living this balanced life you’ve called me to isn’t easy and I’m not perfect. It’s a war, but Lord, you are fighting and I am fighting and we are winning! It’s just that it is messy and I would rather everyone see the finished product than to see me naked and nearly defeated in the middle of the battle. And I’m afraid to say something wrong, to be misunderstood and to make a mistake. Lord, please rip that out of me. I don’t want to live in this box anymore! I guess this blog is about to break this down in me, real quick!! I’m not doing this because I want to. I am doing this because I know I need to…so I guess we’ll see what happens now.
so now I’m changing the subject – because it’s my blog and I can…
I’m meditating on this right now; “Whom have I in Heaven but you? And earth has nothing I desire besides you. My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.” Ps 73: 25-26.
I have a lot more to say about that, but i’m saving it for tomorrow.
